Monday, January 31, 2011

The beginning

My name is Shara, and my husband's name is Mike.  He is currently in Afghanistan, so I am doing a lot of research on my own.  We have been thinking of adoption for awhile, and have recently decided to get the ball rolling!  Very exciting and frustrating at the same time.  I feel like I am surrounded by babies...all of my friends have babies and are working on more babies, and I am the odd woman out.  I was the one who wanted to be a mom when I grew up, and it's heartbreaking that it hasn't happened yet.  Everyone keeps telling me that I have plenty of time, but hitting 30 and being childless is an almost desperate feeling.  I have an amazing husband, a great support system, and we bought our first home last year.  All that's missing is a child...or two!  

NOTE:  Please do not tell me to stop trying and it will happen! We have fertility issues. I promise that when my husband and I are making love, I'm not thinking....This is the time...I know he's about to put a baby in me!  It's the absolute farthest thing from my mind.